Difficulties on the mission

Hey there!

Maybe I am the only one who thinks that missionary work is tough sometimes and it can make you struggle. But I do not think so. Missionary work is pretty tough often. Especially if you take it really seriously and try too much or push yourself too much to be a better sister/elder.

I know now that I did have a predisposition to get mentally exhausted when I have too much stress. 

On my mission I managed to sleep only four hours a night. That is way too little for me at least. Put stress of missionary work, challenges with your companion(s) and trying too hard and too much on top of that and you have yourself a situation similar to what I experienced.

When I came to the hospital after my mini mission they told me my diagnosis:

psychosis and also my progress (like development of the mind as you grow up) was "locked". I sometimes joke that I am really a 20-year old in my mind. I do not really know but I did not become an adult when I was 18... more like 38 :D

Of course this has made life difficult for me. 

Nowadays I take things really easy and not so deadly serious. I am on early retirement and need a nap at least once a day... I am not kidding. I have a lot of medication which people raise their eyebrows at often... Also people very often think I am stupid and /or uneducated.

I do not know if I am the smartest or the most educated but people should get to know me and then make a judgement. Many people judge me right away. They forget that I also judge them as being judgemental... Now that is not a nice thing to be judged as. HAAHHHAH.

On my mission I had the challenge of my two companions not really getting along plus a really "different" elder that I could not understand one bit. Like I understood when he spoke but I did not understand him as a person... Really nice setup for me to become stressed and in the end, very ill.

Now that I am "grown" I can get along with even the most difficult sister or elder hahha. Or I just avoid them... as much as I can :D Or just shut up when they are around. Yeah, missionaries are only human... They are awesome just the way they are, but sometimes they do not get along with the way I am lol.

Sorry, this was not supposed to be a rant :D Oopsie! :D

I thought I just would share that we can all experience difficulties in life.

More later! TA!